they are a poet.
their written work frequently combines other mediums such as collage, water color, sketching, and it often bleeds into their performance work. elise writes poetry and lyric essays and sometimes really angry essays. in addition to creating their own zines, their work has been published in multiple
micro-publishing zines.
when i wear a dress
i feel like a / boy
wearing a dress /
it feels wrong sister / but mostly it feels /
//
right that i am / decorated / to strut
to jut my chin / & / cinch my waist
disguise my tits or lay them on a platter/
//
depending on the cut
i feel like a pansy sister one who dons / femininity
on her petals / delicate & pretty / i feel /
//
like the most beautiful boy in the / whole / world
wearing a dress & sister
i know i can’t say things
//
like that / cause i can't call somebody's
experience / mine / but sister
you stroked my cheek / and told me
i don't have to be a girl
if i don't want to be a girl
& if it's all just fashioned as a concept then this is the birthday cake i want to eat & i want to eat all of it / none of it / i don't want to be / either / or / this / that / i don't want to be your queer / science experiment i don't / want to be / a girl i don't / want to be / a boy / i want to / be / what i am
& when i wear a dress / i am a / boy /
wearing a dress
my pussy dancing / naked under my skirt masquerading as a dick cause when i wear a dress
i am a / fairy with wings larger than your cock i can fly / i am powerful / i am prince no i am king & this is my kingdom & you will bow your / tiny dick / & you will rub your hands across the fabric of my gown cause when i wear a dress i get / hot & horny you will /
fuck me / you will slide your hands up my skirt & and you will / fuck me / & finally i will / fuck you / hard / fuck you / so hard / you will forget / who you are / but you will know
one thing and one thing for sure / that i am a boy fucking you and i am a boy fucking you wearing a dress.
*previously published in Ethel
one time this turquoise boat pulled up to the stern deck and the deckhand to whom i tossed the bow line called me “hon”
and held an engaging conversation with me
the entire time that his boat fueled up
which took me by surprise because usually the
straight-cis-white-misogynistic-bristol-bay-fishermen
really had no interest in beginning and maintaining
a conversation with the
a-little-bit-androgynous-short-haired-obviously-queer-barge-deckhand
because they took an interest in
girls.
oh and did i mention that he wore
very brightly colored raingear that of
blue and orange and yellow and on the back
of his green rain jacket was boldly painted “i eat ass”
so obviously
this fisherman was gay.
once his boat untied i ran upstairs elated to tell the chef my discovery
“after all this time
i think i finally met another queer in the bay! a GAY fisherman!”
i presented her with the given evidence confident in my judgement
after all a queer knows when they encounter another queer
and a punctured ship can sink in a matter of seconds
“a GAY fisherman? impossible”
said the first boy
“pssh are you stupid? definitely not gay”
said the second boy
“hahahaha i’m an o p e n l y g a y fisherman”
said the first boy
“yeah there’s no way you met an openly gay fisherman”
said the second boy
nothing is impossible some say
but those boys
they are the gatekeepers of possibility
welcoming each and every one of us
who differ from them even in the slightest
by capsizing us in deep waters
abandoning us to drown untethered from our vessels
crying silent tears and shouting into the incessant sea
for someone something anything
to witness
our impossible existence.
*previously published in The Barge Zine
*a collaborative project with many contributors.